Hard hit, left a bit

The night is at last,
falling away.
I hear it go past,
not going to stay.

I feel deep regret
at not being the way.
Not filling the bet,
just staying away.

I feel deep remorse
dropped off my high horse.
Disappointed to see,
that the bad can be me.

I am sorry I feel,
this love that's so real.
It is hard to understand,
I wish it would bend,
but it can only break,
so please my apology take.