End of life

I deserve to die
I cannot tell this lie
I have to keep myself
away from the oh so real elf.

She keeps me half awake,
with not one single kiss to take.
My heart simply shakes
at the thought of you awake.

I can hardly live like this,
thinking of all I miss.
The softest touch,
I do not ask for much.

Give the end to me,
just please let me be.
I am so thoroughly normal,
please stop being so formal.